Something’s to self care 

At least 4 things that…

I’m thankful for

And 

Positive things about myself 

And to remember 

Today:

Fridays 

Another day to try harder

Clean water

Roof over my head

And 

I deserve respect

I’m important too 

My opinions matter

It’s ok to make mistakes, everyone does

And

Today is another chance at doing my best

I don’t have to tone down my true self

Not everyone will like you, and that’s ok

Don’t focus on the past, be in the present 

Little Girl Blue

  • Wear shorts comfortably.
  • Look at my reflection in the mirror without seeing a tummy flab.

These are two of the things I am most excited about when I hit my goal weight. It seems vain now that I type it out. The most important reason to want to be fit should be to be healthy. Don’t get me wrong, big can beautiful. All shapes and sizes are beautiful. I’m not just saying that either. People with true love for themselves can bring it. Being proud of who you are is an amazing and sexy thing. I am not those things. I’ve often been depressed. Which in turn makes me feel like not doing anything other than eating, laying around, and watching TV.

< – Depressed – Tired – Low Energy – Anxiety – Sad – Loneliness – Bad Food Choices – More Bad Food Choices – Continued Bad Food Choices – Increased Cravings for Bad Food Choices – Weight Gain – FRUSTRATION – More Depressed – Agitated – Crabby – Irritable – > Drink A Little More Than Usual -> Crave Even More Bad Food ->

This is a cycle I get wrapped up in constantly. Eventually I see the “light”, in a sense; start pulling myself out of the hole of despair and start to slowly see the realization that I need to make better choices to get on a better path.

<- Start Exercising – Drink More Water – Stop Eating Fast Food – Stop Eating Processed Foods – Pick Up More Organic Food – Lowering Carb Intake – Sleeping More -Thinking Positive Thoughts – Reducing Stress – Start Feeling Better – Start Losing Weight – Start Feeling Even Better -> Treat Myself With Kindness -> More Positive Thoughts ->

And then…  it happens all over again. Deep depression for about 1 solid day. Pull myself out of that, and then…

< – Depressed – Tired – Low Energy – Anxiety – Sad – Loneliness – Bad Food Choices – More Bad Food Choices – Continued Bad Food Choices – Increased Cravings for Bad Food Choices – Weight Gain – FRUSTRATION – More Depressed – Agitated – Crabby – Irritable – >

I’ve been growing more aware of this cycle as I get older. I am not sure if these symptoms have gotten worse with age or if I am more aware. I’ve been bad at taking care of myself up until lately. Mentally and Physically.

There’s a WHOLE lot of healing and learning that’s been going on in this 2016.

Where am I at this moment in those crazy cycles that I explained above?

Almost the good one… trying by:

  • Currently exercising again
  • Drinking more water
  • Trying to get more sleep (I was struggling with that all last week. I was getting 4 hours tops, a night. I slept amazing last night though, 8 hours!)
  • Thinking good things
  • Feeling good vibes
  • Staying positive

… Oh and listening to some good music 😉